Saturday, July 23, 2016

Planned by God

I was unplanned. My accidental conception has become somewhat of a family joke; after all, how many times have you heard of a husband unintentionally bricking up his wife's birth-control pills into the bathroom wall? Without immediate access to a new supply of pills, my mother became pregnant soon after.

I was unwanted. The day I checked myself into an orphanage I felt completely unwanted. I had no person to turn to and could only appeal to the mercy of the social services system, which was obligated to furnish a minor with accommodation and nourishment.

At that point, I have no idea what possessed me to go to a pro-choice meeting. Curiosity perhaps. At any rate, I was late entering the conference room and all eyes turned on me when the door slammed shut behind me. Grasping the opportunity, I decided to address the main spokesperson by posing the question that troubled me: "What makes you so adamant that abortion is a good thing?" I asked rather bluntly. "Just consider the child," he challenged earnestly. "Imagine a child who was conceived by mistake, is unwanted and ends up living in an orphanage. Wouldn't we be doing the child a favor by not exposing it to such a miserable existence?"

"I am that child," I blurted out. "I was unplanned and unwanted and am living in an orphanage, but I am thankful to be alive. God planned my life, he made me and he desires me. That is all I want and need."

This group of abortionists was so dumbfounded by my reply, their meeting had to be postponed until further notice. One by one they silently left the conference room. What a glorious God we serve who "chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise... God chose what is low and despised in the world, even the things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are." (1 Cor. 1:27-28)

Your own life, or the life you carry inside you, might have been neither planned nor desired by human standards, but you have a God who chose you before the foundation of the world (Eph. 1:4), who knit you together in your mother's womb (Ps. 139:13) and who calls you His treasured possession (Dt. 7:6). He loves you so much that he is preparing a place to spend all eternity with you (Jn. 14:2).

Praise be to God who gives value and meaning to each living soul!


  1. Wow Kerstin, this is such an enormous experience to have experienced. I am so sorry these painful rejections occurred - every millimetre of you is precious and lovely - may you be surrounded by love which heals and redeems these complex childhood experiences. Love you

  2. Kerstin, I am so sorry of what I have done to you. It is a lot to forgive. Please forgive me. -I am so blessed with you, more than you ever can imagine. Only through you I got to know Jesus. Through you I keep learning more and more about Jesus. I thank the Lord for the blessings you and your children are to me. You all are so precious. I hope, you don't feel ever rejected and unwanted again. I love you. Your Mama

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    2. OF course I forgive you. This all happened before you met Jesus. God's transforming power is so obvious in you. I love you and am so thankful that you are my mom.

  3. Kerstin--your mum's response seems quite powerful to me. What was your experience of it?

    Much love,